Ohm Namah Shivay

I've made countless mistakes,

I've repeatedly sinned,

I've conned others for work,

I've hurt others for no reason,

You should throw me in a pool of boiling oil,

You should slam me on the floor, and crush my head with your divine foot,

You should ask Parvati maa to kick me to the dungeons and behead me with her trishool, as I don't deserve to live!

But none of this can be done now, because I have a responsibility!

My daughter.. My Vedya.. I have to get her to cross the bumpy road ahead and see lights only. Her darkness should end with me. 

After I succeed, you may take me with you.. I would rather die at your feet than to be thrown in hell!!

Har Har Mahadev!!

Words of a Mad Man!

I am no longer in control of my words. I am no longer control of whom I trust. I am no longer in control of whom I am close to. I am no longer in control of anything that makes me feel happy. The only thing that is keeping me alive is my daughter. That cute little bundle of joy. Her smile alone makes me live forever.

My little princess. For you I will live, so my death doesn't create a void that I shall not be control of.